Contextual Analysis of "a constant reminder" in Lyrics

i feel nothing everything is black and white

there's nothing

outside and in me

you're the first thing i think of each morning

of who i cannot be

i don't feel homesick

and it's bleeding out

a place

and you too may suffer like joseph

my grandma always said

i live in misery

of what used to be

i live in mis'ry now that you're gone

is torturing me in my house of mem'ries. my house is a prison where mem'ries surround me

for the progress that we've made

we came

Something scares me in this place I self-destruct for days

The smell the taste it's all just fake the truth is what I lack