Contextual Analysis of "i can't remember" in Lyrics

i keep trying

i keep trying

start

i can't remember when

you can have it but i wanted everything

it was september

and maybe never ever even noticed

i can't remember who i am

as the scenes before my eyes begin to reel

i can't remember how hard i tried

i know i'd never do that as a rule

i must be quite insane

it was late and i was sleeping when he called

just that he was leaving town and must get off the phone

afraid of myself. well it's all i've ever known. well

but i remember what your love is for. everything else

we flew across the sea

but i hope that ship will carry us back)